My “STOCKPILE” –Lisa Bredwell
Did you stock up on canned soup, cereal, hand sanitizer, Lysol yet? I’ll be honest. My husband and I didn’t buy anything more than our regular groceries. In fact, my Wal-mart order got cancelled and since I hate grocery shopping, I didn’t go inside and get my items. Me and Anj (Andy, my husband) ran inside the store and got a handful of things, but didn’t even get a buggy. We should have probably taken things more seriously. We may end up knocking on your door and “borrowing” a cup of sugar. (Hands up emoji should go here).
If I go to my pantry and look, I have stuff we can survive on. I actually already had some ‘tp’ that we’d bought a few weeks ago. We buy all that stuff in bulk. I have some mac and cheese, some (thank you, Lord) Raman noodles and some rice and quite frankly, a lot of stuff that needs to be eaten anyway. But, I do have an essential need that I wasn’t able to track down in Food City. This thing I need is not something I can eat or clean with. In fact what I am in deficit of in my personal pantry is not even something that can be touched. What I need right now more than anything during this pandemic is FAITH.
I am doing ok in the faith vs fear department in the midst of the mania but I’ll be honest, it’s a fight. At first, I got under self condemnation because I kept thinking “look at all He’s brought me thought and all He’s been with me through and I’m still kind of afraid”. I assumed all of you were sitting on top of the world with your faith and that I was the only one struggling. But if I’m struggling, then surely others are, so I want to tell you what I’m doing to work on it in hopes that you will be helped also.
I spoke to Sis. Shelia Wynn and she reminded me of this scripture : Mark 9:24 And straightway the father of the child cried out, and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief. And as usual, she inspired me.
I began to examine myself honestly and I came to the conclusion that I do have some unbelief in me but I do, also, have some BELIEF. I figure I can build from there.
First thing I did–turned off the TV and turned on scripture. The last few days, when I’ve left for work, I have turned on scripture and had it looping on my i pad because I think that if I’m to build upon my “belief” and not my “unbelief” then I need a good foundation. Hebrews 4:12 For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any two edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. Reading and studying the scripture is going to be one of my greatest strengths in building up my faith ‘stash’.
Second thing–I have to get it in my heart that the Lord is for me and not against me. This has to be settled–end of story because if I don’t believe in my heart that He’s on my side, I can’t believe He’s gonna take care of me. I have to remind myself that I belong to Him and that He has my best interest at heart and knows exactly what I need. 2 Timothy 2:19 Nevertheless the foundation of God standeth sure, having this seal, The Lord knoweth them that are his. And, Let everyone that nameth the name of Christ depart from iniquity. ~Jeremiah 29: 11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. I have to trust that He really does have everything under control. The disciples saw this with their very own eyes and Peter actually got to experience it in the flesh. But, I have to see it with my faith- Matthew 8:27 But the men marvelled, saying, What manner of man is this, that even the winds and the sea obey him!
Third: I gotta get my “heart” under control. Jeremiah 17:9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? Here in scripture I believe when speaking of the heart, it’s referring to my feelings or my flesh. I have to get my feelings underfoot and not allow emotion to run away and take my faith with it. I’m learning to treat my “heart” like a child. Scripture says :Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me. When my heart begins to fear and worry, I have to treat it like a child running into traffic. I’ll say “No, this isn’t good for you. You will obey me. You WILL come away from that highway and get into the yard, where it’s safe.” Similarly, I need to say to my heart “No, You will not fear. You will calm down and come into obedience of the scripture that says to fear not”
Last, but actually FIRST. I must learn to pray until I break though. Here again, I have to put my flesh under subjection and say “I will pray until I break through to the spirit realm.” Shallow prayers are not gonna help me find victory. But if I’ll pray until I can pray in the spirit, I’ll find help and build my faith. Jude 20 But ye, beloved, building up yourselves on your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Ghost,
Pastor said in his monthly partnership letter, that soon we’ll have a great testimony of the keeping power of Jesus, when all of this is over.
I believe it. And in the meantime, I plan to work on my “Faith Stash” and keep plenty of faith on hand for the future.
We are gonna make it! Jesus is in control.